RyuUzumaki

Its been a long time since i was here. Though, i don't deserve to be here. I use to look to my friends who drew art so beautifully but they all end up walking different paths that i can't follow. I envied them so much, that i started to draw but it was all for nothing. I stopped drawing, I lost a lot of good friends, I lost  people very important to me and ill never be able to see them again.... I no longer walk the path that i thought i made for myself since it was just a fake path made by people influences and i couldn't walk it any longer, I've change. But i rather go back to the day's where I didn't hate myself so much and i had friends

"demon'{refering to someone i hate} -sighs- its been awhile since i type a journal here so bare with me. I thought coming back to school would be fun since there might be new change's, well i was wrong the new change's wasnt fun at all. One of my friends and a demon where calling me stupid for whatever reason, my friend calling me an "idiot"  the demon "what did you expect in that brain of his" agreeing with her. I ignore the demon since i can makre her cry easily if i wanted to but my friend errrrrr she made me so mad, but the worst she said last to me "no wonder you dont have a girlfrined its cause your Attitude" i tried a come back, but h

*sighs* looks like some of my friends are feeling what I'm feeling.... i really dont know what to do... i dont want my friends to leave me... but i want them to be happy.... wonder how im going to handle this